Today, I got dressed purely to wear something beautiful. I didn’t stay in this dress, because I am sick (not pregnant-sick, so that’s a plus…?) and occasionally feverish, and it was probably a bad idea to even try doing an outfit post, but… I needed this. Do you ever have those weeks where you just feel unattractive for days on end? When you get in a funk where nothing really works on you because of weight gain or a stupid haircut or a cold that won’t go away or a situation that was weird, and you start giving up because what’s the point of getting dressed when you can just sit around in pajamas all day?
That has been me for the last three weeks. Given, I’m pregnant, getting through the phase of morning sickness, ten pounds heavier than I’m used to being, and I’ve spent the last three weeks split between the couch and the bathroom. But this pregnancy has affected me the opposite of my first one — I don’t feel like I have a beautiful growing bump, or that magic pregnancy glow, and I have been a lot sicker this time. So basically I’ve been feeling the extra pounds, and both nauseated AND legitimately sick with a very bad cold. I haven’t been wearing makeup or even showering regularly, and all of that added together is enough to make any woman feel like trash.
So today, after a three-day run of no nausea, despite the nagging cold that is settling into my chest, I decided it was time to clean myself up and put on something pretty. Even if only for twenty or thirty minutes. Just to remind myself that it’s still possible to feel attractive, and that this is just a phase of early pregnancy, and that even if my haircolor is somewhat… unexpected… it can still look good. I’m planning to dye it back to dark brown as soon as I can get a few boxes of my favorite dye, and then we’ll be back in business.
I settled on this dress because I was perusing all of my style archives on Pinterest (and thinking how sometimes I feel like my style used to be a little more fun than it is now) and came across my first post about it… and had to wear it again. I don’t know if it’s still available on Eshakti, but it’s called The Bird’s Eye View dress, and they used to have a skirt as well. I plan to save up and buy another dress from them; having a site that will make a dress to your exact measurements is pretty much a dream come true for this girl, whose hip-to-waist ratio is a 15″ difference. I’d love to order a figure-skimming dress from them, with my own measurements perfectly put in! I have also been missing regular outfit posting; all of the other things are fun to post, but to me, blogging is about style. I love sharing every day moments, but fashion is my love when it comes to blog posts. I am hoping that this run of no nausea or throwing up stays, and that the good weather also cooperates so that I can get back to wearing actual clothes every day, and my husband can get back to photographing my outfits on the weekends.
I have to apologize for most of the pictures being slightly out of focus. But, you know. Sick, pregnant, no camera remote… it’s the best I could do today.
I hope my posts lately haven’t come off as too depressing — really, despite being sick and pregnant, life hasn’t been horrible. Asa continues to be a ham, which really brightens up every day, and we’re getting ready to move back to my parents’ basement which will be wonderful. I’m looking forward to being back in that area, with my own things surrounding me, and I’m secretly hoping I can help renovate the basement. Since currently almost all of it is old and dingy and pretty much exactly what you would expect from a farmhouse basement. (Except for our rooms, which are nice and new.)
On another note, I do have to mention that this coat has been the first thing that was not what I expected from Oasap. Online, it is called a Woolen Cape, and all of the pictures, if you’re not aware that it’s actually a coat, look like a cape. The description also calls it a cape, and the only indication that it is actually a coat is the measurements, which list a sleeve length. I totally missed that, and I was pretty disappointed that it’s not a cape. However, it is a cute coat (who doesn’t love a hood and pockets?) and it will be perfect for maternity down the road if I’m in a cold place with a massive belly.
So, be aware, if you’re browsing and see this “cape”… it’s actually a coat. With sleeves. But cute, once you get over that.
I hope you are all having a good week so far! I’m so glad tomorrow is Friday; the weekend can’t come soon enough right now!