• Thoughts,  Writing

    Free

    Dedicated to my second nephew, Benton, who was stillborn this morning, three days before his due date. And for my brother and his wife as they mourn for their fourth child and first son. Bliss. The most beautiful light he has ever seen, shining around him, filling him with warmth until there are no shadows. He floats into awareness and knows that he is before the most powerful being in the universe. He is unfettered by the weights of the world. He is enveloped by a love purer than any he would ever have known. He cannot remember how he came to be, nor where he had come from. Thoughts…

  • Letters,  Thoughts

    Is this hello, or goodbye?

    My dearest Baby Benton, I am writing you this morning and I don’t know whether you will ever live to read my letter. I was woken up just after 6:30am by your grandpa. You aren’t born yet. They can’t find your heartbeat. My love, I don’t know what to say. I am praying and begging God to leave you with us for a while, because we all love you so much. It’s going to be hard for us to live on if you go to heaven first. We’re all selfish here, and we want you to live with us for a few years before going to God. I have a…

  • Life,  Thoughts

    It’s a Hairy Situation (And Other Random Things.)

    In October, I wrote about how I wanted to grow my hair out again. I was going to chronicle the length each month, but as you might have guessed… I forgot about it. But then this morning as I decided to wear my hair down for the first time in… a long time, I realized that it’s grown a bit and that I hadn’t done any hair-posts for a while. I’m sure you’re all excited about this post. Because my hair is just THAT important to you all. 😉 I also realized that my hair is indomitably straight- straighter than I remembered, seeing as how I’ve been wearing it up…

  • Thoughts

    Aunt Epp’s Guide for Life: The Miscellaneous Musings of a Victorian Lady

    Because the story I’m currently most inspired to work on is set in Victorian times, I pulled a few hefty history books from the shelf at the library for researching purposes. While I was standing there, a little book caught my eye; it was tiny compared to the volumes of history that surrounded it, but its title stood out to me. “Aunt Epp’s Guide for Life: The Miscellaneous Musings of a Victorian Lady.“ I grabbed it, and was drawn in by the fact that in it were notes of advice written by a woman who lived around the period  one of my books is set. It’s a firsthand account of…

  • Thoughts

    07-21-2010

    It’s  been a long time since I’ve read the Bible on my own-  meaning aside from studies and church. I feel awful.  But conversations with the lovely Avra have spurred me to get back on it, since I  like hearing her side of things, and… I miss the daily reading. Today’s reading is going to be quick. I read Genesis 39; the account of Joseph and Potiphar’s wife. Aside from Joseph and his great example of being a godly man in all situations, the thing that stuck out to me was the repetition of “The Lord was with him/Joseph” through the good and the bad things that happen in this chapter. God…