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One Year Old
Dear Asa, Today you are one year old. It’s hard to believe that a year ago today, you were just an itty bitty 8 pound baby, and now here you sit a solid 25. You can stand by yourself, you chat with me and daddy and grandma and pretty much everyone (or yourself, if nobody is around) and it’s very rare that you aren’t making some sort of noise while you’re awake. You just recently learned how to play peekaboo, after a week or so of my moving your hands for you, and now it has turned into a hilarious game of you smushing and slapping your own face to…
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Is this hello, or goodbye?
My dearest Baby Benton, I am writing you this morning and I don’t know whether you will ever live to read my letter. I was woken up just after 6:30am by your grandpa. You aren’t born yet. They can’t find your heartbeat. My love, I don’t know what to say. I am praying and begging God to leave you with us for a while, because we all love you so much. It’s going to be hard for us to live on if you go to heaven first. We’re all selfish here, and we want you to live with us for a few years before going to God. I have a…
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I’ll Call You Beautiful Bouncing Baby Boy Benton
Dear Baby Benton, Today, I found out that you are a boy. And the only reason I didn’t scream and jump up and down like a maniac is that I had just woken up and it hadn’t really hit me yet. But now I’m so excited that I could cry. (I cry a lot. You’ll get used to it.) I’ve been waiting for you for four years. Every time I heard that your mommy was pregnant again, I hoped that she’d be having a boy. Don’t get me wrong, I love your sisters a lot, but I really wanted my oldest brother to have a boy first. I have a…
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Hello Again
It’s been a while. A lot of things have happened since I wrote the last letter; we moved to Mississippi and back, moved to a different house, my nephew was born, I cut off all my hair. Oh, and I finished another novel, although I may never publish it. I feel as though I can finally call myself an author, now that I’ve actually finished two novels. Someday I’ll publish them; I finally felt God telling me to go ahead and really start thinking about it. And moving towards it. It all happened when I finally said goodbye to hopes of a continued friendship with a guy who, honestly, I…