Today has been such a rollercoaster of emotions! Good ones. Even the bad ones were good. This morning I realized it takes me 40 minutes just to wake up after the alarm goes off, and about 45 to fully get out of bed. I don’t know what happened, but after I got married I quit being a morning person. And then I got pregnant, and the baby basically makes me throw up if I get up before seven. It’s not a morning person either.
But I’ve had some GREAT news that I can’t quite share online yet, so that made it a really lovely day. Plus, I always like Mondays at work because there’s lots to do and it makes the day go fast.
But then I got home, changed my clothes, and did… well, basically nothing. And then my husband got home, and I started to feel incredibly guilty for being so lazy around the house (there are three days of dishes to be done, a week’s worth of laundry to be washed, clothes strewn all over both floors of the house… lots to do), and had an emotional breakdown because I just felt like a failure. Thank goodness I married an understanding man.
It was good for me to cry, though, because it just serves as motivation to be better. To clean a little bit after work, even if only for ten minutes a day. To make more of a schedule for after work, so my days are more productive.
And then, after I had my good long cry, I started to feel better, and now I’ve been feeling the baby move and press against my stomach (and bladder…) and it just reminds me that… life is okay. I can’t wait to share what’s been going on with you all, but there are a few more pieces to fall into place before I can say anything.
I do have the exciting news that we’ll find out what the baby is for sure on the 26th! We went to the midwife for an ultrasound on Sunday because I measure three weeks further along than I should be, and she thought I might be having twins. She also said we could probably find out if it was a boy or a girl while we were there.
It’s not twins, for which I am thankful even though I have always wanted twins (just… not first…), but it also moved so much she couldn’t get a clear shot and could only give us a vague guess at what it might be. So we shall see on the 26th if she’s right or not! Meanwhile, y’all should give me guesses and I’ll tally it up and see who wins. Most of my family and friends (and strangers at the store) think it’s a girl.
Dress: Bridgetown Vintage | Heels and belt: Thrifted | Earrings: Gift
Let me know your guess! I hope the next two weeks go fast so I can find out what this baby is and start getting baby things. There are so many baby clothes I’ve seen for both genders that I need. Baby clothes are way too cute to take.
I hope you all have had a beautiful Monday!