The usefulness of a 4-inch heel.

Β This is the second dress I’ve worn today. I started out determined to make another frock work for me, but the top of the other dress just… doesn’t work with my body. It’s not flattering. And I almost said “oh well” and wore it anyway, but then I put on these shoes, which reminded me of this dress, which needed this belt… and there you go.

I hope you’ll forgive the fact that the lighting has turned me into a piece of white paper today. It’s overcast and bad lighting. But it did bring out the color of the dress. And also the red in my hair.

So the other day at work, my coworker and I were discussing whether we girls get cold in the shop (it’s a drive-up stand) and my coworker commented that she never gets cold while the other girl does. And I said “yeah, but she’s pretty skinny” meaning, you know… no body fat to hold in the heat. And my coworker said “but you’re skinny, too!”

And it was sort of a revolutionary thought for me. That I amΒ perceivedΒ by someone as skinny. I don’t see myself as skinny. I see myself as… in between. I definitely have squishy bits– and I should clarify right now that I am in no way demeaning myself or my body, I truly like the way I am– and my hips definitely aren’t small. But I’m not overweight. I’m just… me. And I never would have thought that I would ever be classified in anyone’s mind as skinny.

It’s interesting how different my perception of myself is from others’ perception of me.

In completely unrelated news, I’ve suddenly gotten a bunch of new subscribers and I don’t know where you’re all coming from. I used to get one or two a week, and now it’s one or two a day. So if you feel like it, please say hello and tell me how you found me! I’d like to say hello back.

And, seguing recklessly into a different subject once again, these shoes are the most beautiful shoes ever… but whoever made them did not make them with walking in mind. I swear, one wrong step and it would have been the death of me. Or the serious breaking-of-bones of me. Or something equally detrimental.

On the other hand, if I were ever to be mugged while wearing these shoes, I’d be able to defend myself with the heel. And in the headlines it would say “Woman Saves Herself With High-Heeled Shoe!” and then nobody would be able to argue that high heels are just frivolous inventions.

I should probably go channel this sudden onslaught of ridiculous storytelling into that novel I’m trying to write this month. If a vampire gets stabbed with the heel of a shoe, you’ll know which post it was inspired by.

I hope you all have a lovely Sunday!

By the way, if you’re wondering what happened to my glasses… I just haven’t been feeling like wearing them lately. My vision didn’t miraculously get better or anything. I’m still so blind that I have to be less than a foot away from an object to see it clearly without glasses. Just so you know.


  • Comy

    That dress is gorgeous! I love those shoes, they are so pretty! And I have to say this – you are so beautiful in that outfit!

    I’m not surprised that your coworker thinks you’re skinny. You have thin arms and legs, and well, most of you is rather thin, also, you obviously know what to wear in order to look your best. πŸ™‚ Just look at these pictures! Naturally, people think you’re skinny. Ok, my explanation might have made the whole situation more confusing… I’ll stop “talking” now.

    Those heels do look like a peace of weaponry. πŸ˜€

    Just wondering, how long have you been wearing glasses?

    • Mara

      Thank you! I feel very 1940’s in this dress. I love it!

      Haha, that makes sense. I have always carried my weight well– even when I was 180lbs, people thought I was skinnier than that. And now that I’m at a healthy weight, I think I just carry it in the right places. For me. πŸ˜€

      I’ve been wearing glasses since I was about eleven. But for a long time, I didn’t wear them because I hated them– I would only wear glasses if I had to drive or went to see a movie– and then we got new frames and I wear them every day. *ahem* but yes. About 12 years. πŸ˜€

  • Asia Morela

    Love the heels and the dress!

    I’m quite skinny but for some reason I’m much less affected by cold than most people I know. I like to joke about my body fat keeping me warm… Precisely because a lot of people tend to think in shortcuts like skinny = no fat, although of course I have fat, everybody does who is minimally healthy, especially women. πŸ™‚

  • Marie

    I don’t know if you remember me…I started reading My Beloved and Sweet Ireland Air on fictionpress before you got plagiarized. I think my name was sunnyboy or something like that. (Yeah, it’s weird because obviously I’m not a boy. Long story. Nevermind.)

    Anyway, I read your old blog for a little while then I took a break from internet stuff and focused on school. But now I’m back and I love your blog! You’re a real inspiration.

    P.s. I brought a few friends πŸ˜›

  • tiallarising

    hello! haha I found you by way of Picco’s blog. I like your blog too! πŸ˜€ And yes, those heels look like I’d take one step and fall flat on my face. πŸ˜‰ They’re gorgeous, but I think I’ll stick with my converse. πŸ˜€


  • shreejacob

    I LOVE the blue of the dress and the shoes as well! I can’t use 4 inch heels..well I could, I just wouldn’t be able to stand up in them..much less walk ..haha!

    Perceptions of ourselves are a funny thing aren’t they? and to top it off we perceive things outside differently as well..might as well live in fairy tale land then πŸ˜‰ hehe

  • Avra-Sha Faohla

    In one of the Series of Unfortunate Events books, there was a crazy woman walking around with knife-heels. Had she succeeded in stabbing someone with them, she’d have certainly done much damage!

  • Jamie Rose

    Your dress is such a pretty color and I think it looks really nice on you. I love the cool belt with it. Also, your shoes are indeed fantastic. I think heels could definitely make an awesome weapon in the right circumstance!

  • Demy

    Hi! πŸ˜€ You look so pretty! Ah, blue! I think that ever since you painted your hair, blue is the color that suits you the most. You’re really stunning! And oh my Gosh, don’t get me started on the heels… SO gorgeous, so perfect, so high! I guess that you have to sacrifice being comfortable! πŸ˜›
    Well, I too think you’re skinny. In the most healthy and attractive way possible. You have these amazing curves and you look healthy, not like starving from death. But I think you’re right. It’s always so weird to realise that people around you don’t have the same opinion for you! I’ve always hated my beauty spot. It’s a Marilyn Monroe spot on my right cheek, with the exception that Marilyn Monroe was breathtaking haha! Anyway, a lot of people have told me they like it and I’m like “WHAT? I don’t think you’d have the same opinion if this..thing was on YOUR cheek”.
    Hey, I hadn’t noticed you didn’t wear glasses, I’m so stupid haha! Indeed, though, glasses do look awesome on you! πŸ˜€