These are a few of my favorite things
Today has been a rough day. I don’t usually dump my moods on the blog, because I like it to be a relatively positive place and also I dislike being a Debbie Downer, but today, you guys… it’s been one of those days where I just wanted to be done with it before I even got up.
It started at about 2am this morning with Asa’s waking up and crying because he’d lost his pacifier… and then again at 3:30am, and then he finally woke up at 4:30am and whined for a bit until I figured out — 15 minutes later — that he was hungry. Then he woke again at 6:30 complaining about his wet diaper. But it was one of those moments where I was so exhausted that I had to take a minute because I just did not want to be awake and dealing with anything.
But he went back to sleep and I sort of dozed until 8:30, which helped a little.
So, you know, I had woken up already not wanting to deal with life. But since Asa is teething, he’s been cranky even while nursing, and when you’re already tired, having a semi-cranky baby is hard.
And to top it all off, my boss called to let me know that my numbers for work have been unacceptably low — he didn’t put it like that, I did — and that makes me feel bad. I know I have been distracted while working because I try working while Asa is awake, which means I’ll be going back and forth between him and work, and that really isn’t the best way to do it.
Thankfully, I’m not in huge trouble, but I do need to figure out a better schedule that allows me to be more focused while working, because I want to do the best that I possibly can. I had wondered how I was doing, and thought I was doing okay — not the best, but acceptable, anyway — so to find out I’m not doing great is tough.
But that’s life. You win some, you lose some. So I’ll just focus on putting out my best, reaching goals, and… y’know, that’s all I can do, really!
I get a little overwhelmed by work sometimes; I would like to be just a stay at home mama and wife, and only have to focus on housework, babies, and my husband. But life isn’t always what we hope it will be, and right now having a part-time job is also a must. Some days it makes me feel like working a job means failing as a mama, not watching my baby when he needs to be watched, or failing as a housewife, not getting housework done because I have a shift to do instead.
Or failing as a wife, because when my husband gets home he has to watch the baby so I can finish work and I can’t spend more time with him. I don’t know how people have actual lifetime careers when they have kids, because it’s hard.
But oh well. Life is tough, and we make it work, right? Days like these make me focus on the things I don’t like rather than the things I do like, and I’ve gotta work on that! But I think it’s okay to have a day to just cry a bit. You need to let the steam off sometimes.
One of the bright sides to life recently: this dress. It’s been a long time since I’ve blogged it, and I wasn’t able to wear it for about a year because of being pregnant and carrying the last bit of baby weight in my belly, but once I got back to normal this was the first thing I tried on! It’s probably my favorite floral dress (of the $25+ floral dresses I own). I hemmed it just a few inches so that it was better suited to wearing flats (or just better suited to my figure in general), and now it’s absolute perfection.
I have a huge weakness for brightly colored florals on dark backgrounds. Especially bright roses. Must hark back to my days of being little and having my mom make me pretty fluffy floral dresses to wear. (I also have an affinity for furry things. It started early, as you can see here.)
Thrifted vintage dress and belt | Target sandals | Revlon Fucshia Fusion and NYX Pink Lyric (in the center) lip
Hopefully this wasn’t too depressing of a post! I’m off to make dinner. That’s a happy note, right? Food is always happy. Haha!
Have a wonderful rest of your Thursday!
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13 Comments
Pam Cameron
This wasn’t a depressing post. We all have those challenging days. I am glad your pretty dress helped boost your spirit. Every time I really miss my husband, I remember how lucky I am to have him and imagine Christmas together!
Lanette Faulkinberry
Those days are the worst! I agree, sometimes it’s the best to cry it out for bit, put on a pretty dress and make a yum meal. You’re doing great, keep on keeping on pretty mama xo
Jamie Rose
Ugh I’m sorry your day was so crappy. I hope the teething doesn’t last for too long and that you’re able to pull up your work numbers. It’s hard having a busy schedule.
But at least you look super pretty all dressed up in that awesome floral dress. I love bright florals on dark backgrounds too. So pretty.
Salazar
It sounds like you can handle everything fine… just hang in there! It’s been crazy here for me too. But then again I don’t have to deal with a teething baby (just a room full of college kids who can’t be arsed to complete their assignments on time and the Dean bearing down on me, and a book deadline, and two extra classes) so what do I know?
Erica Sunshine Edwards
i love the whimsical feel to these photos. they are beautiful. i’m sorry to hear about your day. keep your head up!
Ashley
I’m sorry life has been kinda crazy lately. I hope you’re feeling better! At least you look really pretty 🙂
Allie Kay
This dress is BEAUTIFUL! Love these photos, too 🙂
xo,
Allie @ LunaVida
http://lunavida23.blogspot.com/
Becca Lee
Sorry to hear you’re having a rough time! I hope things are looking up, now. In other news, these photos are SO gorgeous! Could they be any greener? And that dress!
XOXO
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Nikki | The Ginger Diaries
These photos are AMAZING Kristina! You look a million dollars in this pretty floral number. I’m bummed to read about your rough day. I can only imagine how you must have felt, but I hope things are looking up for you now. I have no doubt things will fall into place soon, and you’ll be able to find a schedule that fits your life at the moment. And if you’re feeling down again: wear one of your 25+ floral dresses. Wearing a pretty dress always helps me a little ^_^ xo
Mom
I don’t think you sounded like Debbie downer, you were just having a rough day and being honest about it. We all have those kinds of days, and if you never talk about them, then you aren’t being as honest and open as we all love you for! Love you lots!
Chantele
What a beautiful dress and stunning pictures! You look amazing. Your allowed to have down days, everyone knows how stressful being a new mummy can be, but you work through it!
Two Hearts One Roof
sheandhervintage
Can we please talk about how beautiful this dress is? You look simply stunning in it. I agree – dark backgrounds with bright, poppy florals are just dreamy <3
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Desarae
The verdant green surrounding you makes these pictures just luscious. I’m glad you threw in an shot with your bright smile, even though you were having a rough go of it. You’re doing great, momma. Have a cry, then get back up and don’t let that devil push you down with doubts and depression. God is on His throne…you have a beautiful dress. So life is good. 🙂